So a warning up front, this is going to be one of those long, pointless, and rambling ones. Feel free to go look at something * pretty **. Ooooh ***, shiny****!
This week has lasted forever, hasn't it? I feel bad for wishing my life away, but I started looking for Friday back on Monday. That's about a day earlier than normal for me. (I feel like I should have a drum ba-dum-dump on that.)
So to address the whole JeepGirl fiasco and the warm and fuzzy comments to it: boy, aren't hormones plus self-esteem issues just a lovely combination? WhatsHisFace is fantastic, and to his credit, I've had the better part of 18 years of being totally secure with him. It wasn't a happy few minutes for me, but I think bringing it up caused more harm than good. Kind of - I'm more aware now than before that I've got some monster self confidence issues lurking. Maybe it's that milestone birthday that's looming in five months (so start planning the party and the gifts now, kthanksgbyenow! LOL) or maybe it's that I'm back at my top weight. Or maybe I've just gone round the bend. Who knows? And yes, I'm being flippant, but I'll figure out a way to work on it now that it's reared it's fugly head. I just have no freaking idea how to go about that at this point.
One good thing that did come out of the whole mess is hearing/reading from you all. Even if we are wastes of human beings because we're not having kids, well we made a difference in other peoples lives. Some of them have or are having kids, so that counts, right? I'm being all thorny again, I know - sorry!
I'm seriously wondering about that though. I've been a total bitch since I came back from the motorcycle trip. I blamed it on the stomach thing coming back, but I've gone back to the mostly bland diet and here I am still all thorny. Is that how it works? You're normal one day and then you wake up a cantankerous old woman? I'm wondering now if those long Zen-like rides where I contemplated if it was good for me to be a people-pleaser and self-denier in the pursuit of peace in my immediate circle of people were perhaps a bad idea? Is this how the universe or Creator or hell, my own subconscious thinks is the best way to answer that?
In addition to the bitch factor, I've also become totally opinionated on everything. You! Get a job! You! Quit lurking and comment already! You! Stop whining and suck it up! You over there trying to hide, what have you done for me lately?!? No, I don't like that. And I don't like that either. But I like that even if y'all don't. Go suck an egg. No really - here's an egg! Bite my tukus! (See? Cantankerous old woman! Who else talks like this?)
But maybe some good will come of the new me. You know, if I can find a way to make this somehow serve the common good? All I need to do is come up with the proper focus, something that will help all of mankind. It can't be that hard, right?
Oh, and one more thing! I'm really disliking this whole blogger template thing. And CSS! I'm trying to take a pretty cool free template and make it work with the new Blogger and it's pitching fits. Who the bloody hell went and changed HTML into the hot mess it is now? I could deal with it back in the first days when it was all tags and you could learn it in an hour. But with the CSS and the XML and the dohickeys with the widgets, gimme a damn donut and a Chai. You! Make it work!
(See? I warned you it would be pointless and rambling.)
* - I have no idea, a friend sent the link as I was writing this. Yes, I have odd friends. It was even a dude.
** - I will live there one day, oh yes I will!
*** - The clothes are cool, but the dude is the pretty thing LOL
**** - Me want.
Thursday, September 13, 2007
And How Are You Today?
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Shoot Sephy an email, he made old templates work with the new blogger fairly easily. ;)
www.sephyroth.net
Cheers!
Snoskred
I had a blind spot for your 't' characters. I kept reading "horny" instead of "thorny". Either way, I think you need to get laid. :)
Yeah you need to get laid and bitch I gots a job!! LOL
Snosk: oh, I'm sending him one now! I've been banging my head against the desk with these CSS templates and all I've mostly gotten is a headache, thanks!
Beosig: that's funny about the t. But typical dude answer: more sex!
Jasmine: LOL I was not talking about you, ya wench! Hello! It's not always about yooooouuuuu LOL
In reference to one of your earlier posts, I am 32% abnormal. Use your own discretion whether you want to pay the slightest bit of attention to anything I say.
1. About "wastes of human beings" I assume you jest. We don't all need to replicate ourselves. There's been entirely too much of that going around.
2. I became cantankerous at puberty. I don't think you get MORE cantank, you just get better at it. By the time you're my age, you're perfect as a fine old whine, er, wine.
Back Nine: It was a pointed jest.
1) I've got guilt issues with the not producing grandbabies thing. I'm letting them see the light of day in hopes it helps to cinderize them :)
2) Well then here's hoping that I'm going the route of a rare, old vintage and not the type that turns immediately to vinegar :D
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